Can I Get an Amen? [RHEH-RHEH] [M]

[DaGlobster]

Fortunately for Khero and her sense of embarrassment, Elaros picked up on her little signals. He dipped down and put his forehead against her, his slit pupils tightening up as he cranked it up just a few notches. He purred for a moment, and then kissed her again.

"You're so good, Khero..." Elaros whispered, and he grinded against her for a few moments so he could rub the scales of his groin against her before picking the pace right back up.

[Rhindeer]

A shudder wracked her when he ground against her like that, her hand tightening on his arm until her knuckles went white, and she bit the hand covering her mouth to keep her squeaks and whimpers inside. But Elaros could no doubt feel that she was enjoying that as she tightened around him in response, her muscles going taut and shivery and chest heaving with quick pants.

She clenched her eyes shut, sucking in a deep breath.

"A-am I?" she managed to gasp as she moved back against him, tentatively grinding back. It felt good, but gods, she felt so awkward. She was rusty and besides, this was new, laying with Elaros like this, and she wasn't quite sure what to do. He was experienced as hell, and she felt clumsy and nervous and shy, and gods, he was her master and she was a slave! Was...was this wrong?

[DaGlobster]

Elaros noticed her inner turmoil in the way she was just still, no longer just letting him do all the work, but still. Like a rock.

"You are," Elaros said, but he slowed down just a bit, and brushed his knuckles against her cheek.

"What's wrong, Khero? It's alright, you can tell me," he said, voice free of annoyance or anger. Rather, it was full of concern.

[Rhindeer]

Oh gods, he noticed! Was she that obvious?!

And then he slowed, and asked what was wrong and meant it and...

Oh man.

Oh man.

Khero's breath hitched for a different reason and she turned her head to the side, shaking her head and clenching her eyes shut tighter even as her breath came out in quicker, more panicked bursts. She was trembling, and she could feel her eyes burning beneath her eyelids, but she fought hard to keep it in and didn't dare open her mouth because oh shit she was not going to cry!

[DaGlobster]

Elaros' head cocked curiously, and while she made a valiant effort to not cry, he'd seen that expression many of times, and he could feel the heat pooling in her face. He didn't leave her, but he did stop.

"Khero?"

A slight, concerned tilt to the corner of his snout, and his eyes scanned her.

"Khero..."

[Rhindeer]

"Sorry! Sorry!" Khero gasped out, covering her face with her hands and shaking her head as the tears finally fell. Ugh, this was so mortifying, but she couldn't help it and couldn't stop the onslaught once it began as her shoulders shook and she choked back sobs. She didn't even know how to articulate what was going through her head right then, the confusion, the gratitude, the nervousness, the shame, all mixed in with pleasure. But she never had told Elaros her history--shit, she'd never told anyone about that, the things she had done for survival's sake.

She sucked in deep breaths, trying to control herself. "I'm sorry, it's...it ain't you."

[DaGlobster]

After a few quiet moments, Elaros sheathed himself, leaving her in the process.

"It's alright, Khero," he said, and he shifted himself off of her and sat up, looking down at her. He took a tear off of her cheek with the curve of one of his claws. He rubbed it out...

... and smiled at her.

"If it's something you want to talk about, or need to get off your chest, I'm happy to talk," he said, and he laid down on his side, facing her.

[Rhindeer]

Khero was quiet a long moment after that. She rolled onto her side when Elaros pulled out, legs pressed together, and pulled the sheet over herself and to her chin so she didn't feel so exposed. It took a little bit before she could calm down enough to think clearly, and rein her emotions back in tightly (guh, what was wrong with her, she didn't normally fall apart like that!), but finally the tears stopped falling and she could breathe again. If a little more sniffly now.

"I...um...I never told ya 'bout who I really was 'fore I came here..."

[DaGlobster]

"You didn't, but... I had an idea," Elaros said, and he went under the covers as well.

"I knew you weren't exactly the smoothest around the edges, but I didn't want to make any assumptions. I didn't pry," he continued.

He shifted closer to that sweet warmth of hers, and his eyes wandered to her lips, and then back to her eyes.

[Rhindeer]

Khero licked her lips, staring down at the sheets. Her hands knotted in the covers, playing with them as a distraction.

"I, um...I been homeless since I was thirteen," she said at last. "Weren't just me I had to look out fer. Had to feed my siblings, too, and they were just kids. I couldn't...I didn't wanna put them at risk, so I...well...I did what I had to. To make sure they had food in their bellies and clothes on their backs. So, uh...I stole." She winced at that, guilt gnawing at her. "And I fought. Lotsa competition on the streets, lotsa gangs, 'specially when yer just a girl, and um..."

She chewed her lip. "Sometimes, weren't nothin' else to do. No way else to get food when things were tight 'cept to...well...offer whatever I had. And...I'm all I had, so...er..." She swallowed again.

[DaGlobster]

"You did what you had to, Khero," Elaros said, and Elaros found this concern actually pretty relatable.

"And I'm not going to judge you, or hold it against you, because I've been there too."

Elaros shifted a bit.

"When I first arrived in Ketra from Drakkona, I had next to nothing. The currency was worthless, you see."

He smiled a bit to himself.

"I had to fight for it. I sold my luggage, hawked my homeland's currency as baubles. For men and women who had a particular attraction to dragons, I... worked as an exotic escort."

[Rhindeer]

"Oh..." Khero said, chancing a glance up at him then. So he understood, then. And in more ways than she thought. He had mentioned once before that he had had nothing when he came here and had to build himself back up, but she hadn't realized how far that extended.

She looked down again and plucked at the sheet. "So I guess ya get it, huh? More than I expected," she said, relaxing a little and wiping at her eyes again.

"So I guess it's just...I guess I'm just tellin' ya that 'cause I just, I ain't had many...normal experiences, ya know? Not many good ones. I had a lover once, like, an actual lover, but...it was hard then, too. I know how to do stuff. I was fourteen my first time, and he was a stranger who paid, and...I dunno. Been doin' it a long time, s'what I'm sayin', but it's just..."

She shrugged her shoulders, having a hard time articulating it. "I know how to suck a dick, I can make a lady scream, I know how to ride until he's done, but..." She grimaced.

Because it was hard for her to just let go and enjoy it, for it was so tied up in the shame and stress of having to sell her body, of doing what she was paid to do, of not knowing who would stick to the agreed upon limits or who would ignore her "no", the not knowing who would hurt her or even kill her. It was hard to shut that part of her mind off, and hard not to remember the bruises around her neck.

[DaGlobster]

Elaros sobered up at her explanation, and he gently passed a hand along the contour of her hip, an idle, caring motion.

"You've lost touch," Elaros said, and then continued.

"When so many of your encounters are unpleasant or emotionless at best, I know that it can be hard to treat normal situations in a healthy manner," Elaros said.

"You've sort of... forgotten how to exact pleasure for yourself, and it's hard to trust your partners. I know this, and while I don't claim to have experiences anywhere as unpleasant as yours, I struggled for a long time to separate my business from my pleasure, even after I'd long abandoned that life."

He smiled at her. A genuine, caring smile and he kissed her forehead.

"Forgetting is hard, and enjoying yourself is even harder, but if you keep your own desires in the forefront, if you give and take, and if you lay with someone who cares about both their experience and yours, it becomes easier every time."

He chuckled.

"And the easier it gets, the better the sex becomes. Quite the incentive."

[Rhindeer]

Khero shivered as he stroked her hip, a pleasant sensation tingling along her skin, and she let herself relax a little more as he spoke and she listened. His words...resonated with her. It was true. She had lost touch. Had never really been in touch in the first place. It wasn't to say it never felt good, because it did, but it was often hard to focus on the pleasure and let her mind go even during those times she had done it with someone she genuinely cared about.

Of course, she had had no such issues when she'd been drugged. Sigh.

"That's...that's pretty damned spot on," she said, looking up at him when he kissed her brow. "But I guess I'm away from all that shit now, at least, so...maybe..."

She bit her lip, a flush creeping over her face and down her neck. She didn't really want to voice that another reason it was difficult for her was that she was still getting used to his...dragon-ness...when she had only ever been attracted to humans, and still was. But he cared about her--that much was obvious--and that made it a little easier--

And made her more willing to overlook that.

With a deep breath, she sat up, taking the sheets with her, and boldly crawled atop him until she was straddling his hips. Her blush was quite vivid on her pale skin, burning her up, but she nibbled at her lip and looked down at him, as though deciding something for herself.

"D'ya...wanna try again?"

[DaGlobster]

Elaros was glad they saw eye to eye on this, and honestly, even though he'd had his share of high-class escorts, he'd never really met anybody who could relate to having no other choice.

He put his hands on her hips, smoothing them downwards along her outer thigh as he took in her features and form once again.

He smiled up at her, and nodded gently.

"I do."

He unsheathed himself again, and he lifted his head up a bit so he could get a pillow beneath it. He gave her no commands, letting her do this at her own pace.

[Rhindeer]

Khero felt him unsheathe himself, felt him against her backside, and a little shiver went through her. It was such an interesting thing, to be able to do that. Must mean no one could get one up on him by kicking him in the balls.

Which...he didn't seem to even have balls.

Swallowing, she met his eyes, smiled shyly, and then lifted up so she could reach behind her and grasp his cock, marveling at the sensation as she brought it under her. It didn't feel much different from a man's, and somehow touching it like this made it a little less intimidating and foreign, and so she simply stroked him for a moment, watching him for reactions, before she brought herself down onto him.

But she didn't take him inside her yet, like she normally would with anyone else. Normally, it was just all about getting them off, and getting it done as quickly as she could--except for those few precious times when she'd been with a lover and it had been different. And so she let herself think of Elaros as a lover, not a job, and slid their sexes together, grinding against him slowly, relaxing atop him even as she shivered when he rubbed against her clit. She was still blushing like mad--this felt strangely vulnerable, letting herself enjoy it like this--and she covered her breasts with her hands as she moved, all too aware of how they swayed when she moved.

"Is...uh...that okay?"

[DaGlobster]

"It's great, Khero," Elaros said, and he let out a light, barely audible purr as she started to rub them together. His hands continued to gently rub her thighs and sides, wanting all of their contact to come off as non-threatening as possible.

Then, in a move that surprised even him, he slid his hands up her abdomen, the tips of his claws leaving harmless trails of sensation, and he covered her hands with his own. He smiled up at her, and just closed his eyes to bask in it all.

[Rhindeer]

Oh damn.

Khero startled when she felt his nails on her skin, little shivery pinpricks, but it was only because she wasn't used to bedding anyone with claws. But then he drew them up her body and she shivered, goosebumps rising under his claws, and when his hands found hers she turned her own hands around so she could lace their fingers together.

An oddly intimate move, but in the moment it felt right.

A soft sound escaped her as she moved, grinding a little more insistently and even letting her eyes flutter closed in pleasure, before she finally released his hand so she could reach down and grasp him, aligning him with her--before, with a shuddering gasp, she slid down onto him. It was easier this time than the first, and felt even better than before, and she cracked her eyes open and bit her lip as she looked down between them, wiggling her hips to take more of him in. But there was a limit, of course, and only so much she could take before it was too deep, and so she stopped where it was comfortable and let out a breath she hadn't known she was holding as she just marveled at how he felt.

"Damn..."

Meeting his eyes again, she leaned forward, hands once more in his, and sucked in a breath as she began to rock her hips slowly, feeling him out and taking her time, and released that breath on a low moan.

[DaGlobster]

Elaros raised one of the scaled ridges over his eye when she laced their fingers together, but something about it just ringed off as right to him, so he went with it. When she took him in, Elaros turned his head to the side, his own eyes closing.

He didn't say anything, but he way the corners of his snout turned upwards spoke volumes. His tail came up and then down, draping itself across one of her legs with the point angled towards where they were joined. It didn't do much, other than slowly sway and rub against her skin, using her slow rocking as a rhythym.

When she held his hands, she'd find his own hands seeking hers, and he simply held them upwards, propping his forwarms up on his elbows in case she wanted to use his hands for leverage.

[Rhindeer]

His tail felt strange against her leg, scaly yet oddly smooth and cool, and she startled briefly at the sensation before she relaxed again. With a tight grip on his hands, and a small smile when she saw how he reacted--and how tame he was behaving, like a giant, scaly teddy bear--she started to move a little more, shuddering as she swiveled her hips in small circles, and then back and forth, alternating rhythms as she sought out what felt best--

And found it.

A little whimper escaped her before she could control herself, her breathing growing a little faster, as she began to rock and grind more insistently, pushing and pulling against his arms for leverage. Her eyes clenched shut, her back arching, and despite her best efforts she let out a soft cry when she lifted and then fell on him, her body trembling with the effort and enjoyment in equal parts as the pleasure mounted--and she began to truly ride him.

She panted, sucking in deep breaths to keep from making much noise, though suddenly she wrenched one hand away from him and covered her mouth with it when one particular downward thrust nearly made her yelp as it hit her at just the right angle, sending a blissful jolt through her that surprised even her. She muffled the sound, going even redder, and froze atop him.