Aznimal watched Æana get out of bed, watched her slip on the clothes and fall, forced a 'heh' at her sarcastic (or at least he pegged it as sarcastic) glee.
She seemed so calm, aside from her earlier scream and outburst. Even if it was a front, she could joke again so easily. God what he would do for a sliver of that control.
No, no nononono. He couldn't think like that. Aznimal drew his knees up to his chest and rested his forhead against them, pressing his swollen lips tightly together. Thinking like that made them right, gave meaning to their mocking sneers and distrustful glances. Both wanted him to fail, one more directly, the other watching and waiting for one little mistake. Waiting for that one little imperfection, that one imperfection they didn't want.
There were no excuses, no pardons in the face of long years of trying to be perfect. One mistake was all they needed to be deemed unworthy.
Kure. Now he really needed to find Kure.
But first, he had to do something about this. He couldn't just leave Æana, that was wrong route. Aznimal pulled his head off his knees and looked at Æana, who'd just walked out of the bathroom. His head felt light and she looked like she was slowly up, around, back up and around again. He smiled a little, his lips stinging even through the little gesture.
God, this should have been easier, knowing what not to do during this situation should give him some idea of what to do.