TRIGGER WARNING: Sexual abuse.
...220 years ago, the day after marrying Beth, in a dream...
Arnel had married yesterday. He was pious, and pure - as much as was possible. He had wondering thoughts, sometimes, but he'd never touched another woman, never seen one undressed until his wedding night last night. It had been... awkward, and he wasn't quite sure if Beth had even enjoyed it at all. It was a far cry from the dreams of Lillith he'd had in the past. He wasn't even sure which version of sex was correct, or if the reality of last night could somehow turn into something more enjoyable for the both of them with time, patience, practice.
At least now he could work on his long awaited goal of starting a family. He had always wanted children. A lot of them, and Beth seemed as eager to have a home full of children bouncing around her as he did. He smiled softly, and brushed his fingers against his wife's side where she lay on her side, facing away from him.
She turned, and smiled at him. "Arnel, are you still awake?" Her smile was sweet as ever, but the voice was wrong. It gave him a start, and then there was that sexy smirk - and in the blink of an eye it was Lillith he was looking at, lying in his bed beside him, wearing nothing at all. He couldn't resist her, not here in his dreams, never had been able to - didn't wan't to, wouldn't. In real life he'd never even fancied the idea of even touching her when she tried to tempt him, but in his dreams he couldn't resist at all.
He was already reaching for her. His fingers caressing her warm skin. He slid closer to her on the bed, pressed a knee between her legs, so he could get closer to her still, pressed his lips to her lips, and slid is tongue past them, longing to taste her.
Ekjin save him. He wanted her so much. He didn't deserve Beth, he didn't deserve Ekjin's mercy or his love... he certainly didn't deserve His redemption.