Nitya stared out the window from her bed as Kai talked. Now, more than ever, she didn't want to make eye contact with him. She wanted to hear what he was saying, but she was afraid of feeling it. She knew that the love with which he spoke was covered in sadness.
Oddly, Nitya found herself saying, "I'll talk." She had never wanted to talk about her siblings before, but now she felt the need. "I didn't know all of them well, especially the elder ones. There was Kaneesh, Yala, and Mani, they were the eldest." Those were the ones that disappeared before she was four. "I never knew them, not really, but I was told they were very protective and kind. Then there was Yeeva and Koi, they would play with me all the time when I was young. They were twins, and they had much straighter hair than the rest of us. Especially me." Nitya loved her curly hair with a passion, but she admired straight hair too. There was something so clean in comparison to her wild curls.
Sighting, she continued, "Anna used to read to me... I don't know how she learned to read, but she would. I would say she was the smartest. She probably taught herself. Then there were Yatvi and Ray, they were the closest to my age. Yatvi... had spirit. Not like your sister, none of us did. But she wanted to make something of herself." Yatvi used to talk about how she would be a concubine, but she would be such a good one she would get the man to make her his wife. If the sisters weren't so scared of their own fate, they may have laughed. Such stories weren't impossible, but they were not the norm. "Ray was timid. I think Ray would have given up on herself if Yatvi wasn't there. And then there's me... just me."