Aithne's eyes gained something over the short moments she awaited the dreaded response, the affirmation of her fears: a silent plea. Any creature, even one of the same genetic makeup, who knew the reality of her existence posed a threat. Could choose to expose her to the milling humans who carried out their ignorant lives around her. Could destroy, in the breath of a single word, everything she'd worked so hard to establish. Could make of her an outcast, a hated, hunted monster. That vulnerability was more than the dainty woman could bare. His soft, easy response sent a sharp course of electricity down her spine, and she stared at him with desperate calculation--a wounded animal cornered by a predator. The gentleness of his tone and warmth of his smile was grating, almost a schoolyard taunt. Sadistic. Or well-meaning, Alanna. Don't overreact.
As he continued, seeming to answer each of her suspicions in turn, she forced herself to feign ease, even blink a time or two, as though she wasn't paralyzed by her own dismay. When the accursed word passed his lips, however, the masquerade was slain. Her eyes bulged and her mouth dropped open, and in disbelief she stared at him, unmoving, for a fraction of a second. "Are you crazy!?" she breathed frantically, and suddenly dove for the still-open door, reaching it with ridiculous speed and yet carefully pressing it closed. She spun and threw her back against it, as though the whole city was about to barge through waving torches and pitchforks. Her knees quivered, and she fought the desire to slump lifelessly to the floor, to just curl up and die. She inhaled deeply, fighting against hyperventilation, and slowly lifted her eyes to Richter. How dare he? "Fool!" she spat the word with a much ferocity as she could between gasps, a slow hand raising to her wildly palpitating heart.
Slowly regaining herself, she did her best to mask her contempt, and moved on with an explanation, the human in her methodically working to smooth over her feral outburst. "Do you have any idea what that...word...means to these people? If just one passerby heard you, they'll have my head on a pike by dawn!" Her voice was haggard, and it became suddenly obvious she was struggling, the civil girl losing out to the heathen beast. She moved to the table, her heart clenched in one hand while the other reached out before her, moving in a cautious shuffle. At this point, any little thing at all could trigger it, anything at all could be the straw that broke the figurative camel's back, and she'd be a roaring, vicious beast...the embodiment of everything inside herself she hated and feared. Swiftly, she tossed the silvery lid from the waiting jar of cinnamon sticks, seized one, and thrust it into her mouth. A loud crunch shattered the sudden quiet as she bit a generous portion free, and continued as she chewed the chunk to pieces, her tongue methodically working it around her mouth. A swell of sweet-burning fire leaped from each remnant, instantaneously blinding her most acute senses, and the sudden ease spread slowly, visibly, along her rigid form.
She exhaled heavily, a thick burst of cinnamon accompanying her breath into the open air. She took a few moments to slowly bring herself down, and turned her gaze back to Richter, her cheeks and the bridge of her nose flooded with the heat of the fire. "My apologies," she said at last, her voice once more light and familiar, though the song was still noticeably absent. "I'm...a little inclined to overreact when my livelihood is at stake, I do hope you'll forgive my outburst." It was astounding, really, how quickly the cinnamon took effect, how it could reverse the threat of transformation and return lucidity to the previously psychotic. "Wolf's bane," she announced with a soft, dry chuckle, waving the remainder of the stick. "I wouldn't survive here without it," her voice was still laced with apology as she tried to diffuse tension from the situation, sheepishly eying Richter. As her gaze crossed him, she couldn't find the enemy she'd seen in it only moments before...he really did just stumble upon another were, no agenda beyond selling his leather. "I've, uh, only met one..." The bastard who bit me...
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