Embarassment didn't even begin to explain what she was feeling at the moment. She was very nearly mortified. Here she was, just finished begging a job off of a brothel owner and she has to start falling apart! It wasn't what she wanted for a first impression! Not at all! She wasn't a weak person, not in the least! After all, how much had she gone through before this? The curse that very nearly killed her right as they found the cure, her brother's death, nearly dying in childbirth because her uterus collapsed...this was nothing compared to those things! Yet here she was, dizzy and falling over and crap.
Gyah! It was frustrating! She hated seeming weak, and she hated having her weaknesses shown in such a manner. It would be different if it were life threatening or something...
Because nearly starving to death wasn't life threatening or anything. Yup, her judgement was screwed up big time.
She nodded as Peach said he'd be back and swept out of the room. And he really did sweep...honestly, he acted more like a woman than a man, and even his manly attire was decorative enough that he could be one! But she did notice that he didn't have any boobs and everyone seemed to refer to him as a "he" not "she" or at least...not that she'd heard? It was all too confusing. Almost like, a woman's spirit was trapped in a mans body...a beautiful man at that, but a man just the same.
If she was a jealous person his beauty would have upset her, but Rayne being Rayne, she was just shocked that such a beautiful person actually existed! He was simply angelic! It made her acutely aware of how she looked and, gods she had to admit it, how she smelled.
"A shower would be wonderful" she replied after he was gone, more talking to herself than him anyways, "A nice...long...shower." Gods how long had it been since she had done more than splash water over her face and dunk her babes into a small basin?
Too long.
But that was about to change, just as her hunger pains were about to be satisfied as Peach returned with the food. Simple as it was, Rayne was never one for extravegant foods, and the hot cereal made her mouth water. She wanted to take the porridge and eat it all in one fast slurp and then ask for more! And she would have, too, if Aniketos' voice didn't fill her head, telling her that it would do more damage to eat quickly after barely eating at all for months. In the end, it would make her sick and she would more than likely be bedridden for weeks, sometimes longer. There were benefits to marrying a doctor, that much was true! And it was also nice to see that Peach seemed to understand the type of food that was best for a starving body. Nothing rich, no creams or meats, just simple foods that would sit in her stomach and make her stronger until she could handle foods with more substance. It was nice that someone actually knew, and cared.
And the bottles for the children! They made her laugh until she realized that it might seem rude and she stiffled the giggle behind her hand. They were makeshift, hastely created, and absolutely perfect. Of course, she would have been fine with a few glasses of milk and then a small spoon....but this worked too! And it proved that Peach was all that she originally thought upon his first introduction, that he was kind to the core. Well...so she hoped. It certainly seemed that way now!
"Thank you" she told him with a smile, "This...all of this...means more to me than I can ever say." she she spoke, she pulled the sling from around her head and gently laid the babes down, silently thankful to have their weight off of her pained chest, and doubly thankful that they continued to sleep. She could feel by their emotions that they were stiring, but they wouldn't wake for a few minutes, enough time for her to finish her meal, which she took to with as much restraint as she could muster. Eat slowly now....eat slowly....eating quickly would only make things worse.
"I've been wandering for nearly three months now" she muttered between the spoonfuls of porriage, she needed to let him know just how much all of this kindness meant, "Out of all the places I tried to find work, this is the first that has ever invited me inside." With her last sentence she looked straight into his pale blue eyes, her own glimmering with hope. Yes, they still had the haunted look of a seventeen year old girl who was mentally too old for her age, but hope and the kindness she had found had renewed some of her youth.