The sudden change of events left Oinnanai off balance like a tight rope walker tripping over her own feet; the pole she used for balance tipping precariously to one side. She couldn't right herself, not while her mind remained in chaos. Nothing was making sense anymore and Nexus's sudden change of mind wasn't helping. Not to mention she, herself, wasn't even sure what she wanted anymore.
She was sure, however, that this was not it.
The situation left her feeling helpless, like a little girl. How could she fight someone who was so obviously inhuman? Not so much a someone but a something. It didn't matter that she was the one who came back to life, no, it only mattered that he hadn't been the one to die. Not to mention, he had miraculously been healed of all wounds in the time she had been dead. It was wrong, all wrong...every bit of it.
How could she have been so stupid? She had been upset about the Goddess's reasonings, about being created but...but....did that actually matter? If she was truly a follower, would it matter if she had been born or not? Shouldn't she, the high priestess, be above doubt?
No, perhaps not above, but she couldn't give into it. Not when this man, this thing was such an affront to Her light.
It was all too much. She needed a vacation, a time to get back on her feet, to understand, to soul search, to ask the Goddess Herself what it all meant. But what she didn't need was to give into her childlike desires to annoy Her. After all, if She were to show Herself, who's to say that She wouldn't smite Oinannai as well?
Now something needed to be done...she needed to do something other than just stand here while he pressed his lips against hers....no no no no....
But she needed to stay calm. She had learned that to be calm is to remain in control in order to hear Her words, follow Her path...Now she just needed...just...
It struck her. Fighting would do no good, not in this situation. But melting into his kiss...oh that would be what he expected, it would be what he even wanted and there could be no questioning her motives. But first....first the reassurance.
"Ahhh...." she breathed and then leaned forward into his kiss, letting her body speak for her. Her arms snaked around his neck to pull gently on his ears. Only, she didn't let go. Her now black hand tightened its hold and she pulled with all of her strength, hoping to hear the sound of tearing flesh and feel his ear detach itself from the side of his head.