It was then that Adonarius' expression changed noticeably. His countenance did not suddenly take on one of anger, or indignation, rather it deepened in its grief at the misunderstanding. "Do you not know," he said slowly, sorrowfully, "how much human life is at stake when one tampers with the fabric of the universe? It is the whole of existence as this dimension knows it--every single planet on every single solar system, human life as well as the other races and peoples."
"They do not torture Tyslon, this high council of our order, but it is the very universe itself that seeks out any possibility of a catalyst to its own destruction, making sure that no underlying evil is at work in what has been done, preserving the delicate threads from which the cosmos is woven. It is this deep searching of the soul that is an agony--to have one's spirit exposed for all to see, to be faced with the vastness of the universe all at once while still in one's living form, a fate normally reserved only for those who have already passed into the afterlife and whose souls are not bound to a body.
"Tyslon's spirit, like all the others who have faced the same interrogation, will wish to take its rightful place in the universe--will long to go to the place where it is destined when his body perishes, but since he is yet alive and present in his body, it cannot, and that is where he shall suffer, for he will have to accept that all the truth-revealing vastness, beyond the infinity and the perfect peace of what is to come, is not yet ready to take him in, and his very spirit will cry out within him, longing to go where it is ultimately destined, and trying to go there--but being forced to stay within mortal bounds until his true death where his spirit will be released.
"But there must be a truth-finding, and to be exposed to the ultimate discerner of truth is the only way to know for certain that all risk to the universe has been sought out, all potential for evil to again take final hold on the world. The only thing to which I can compare what the experience will be is to be ravenously hungry, only inches away from a sumptuous banquet, but to be chained in a prison cell so that one's hand can only barely touch the food but not bring it to one's lips."
He bowed his head and paused to gather the painful memory. "When I was an apprentice, nearly three hundred years ago, I too faced such a questioning of the spirit. It was for an offense for which I had been falsely accused, but nevertheless the truth had to be found out." His eyes closed as his hand reached out as if what he saw in his memory were happening right then. "I saw all that was perfect, complete, all the good that could possibly be in one place, all the happiness that awaited the freed soul."
Then he opened his eyes, still reaching out for that from which he had been held back. "And I strained to get to it. I wanted to be there, far from the shackles of mortal life, but I could not. I cried out with the agony of it, and my master's voice was what saved me from going utterly mad with the knowledge that I must wait for such a consolation. He brought me back a little to the land of the mortal. He took my face in his hands and looked deep into my pain-ridden eyes, reminding me where I was meant to stay for yet a while longer.
"None of us wish this upon Tyslon--for all are old enough to have experienced it at least once in their lifetimes. And some...some who are very weak or sickly in body have not survived, for their flesh has not been able to hold them back, and their spirit forces itself to be released, to go to its paradise. I do not believe that Tyslon will find his eternal peace in this manner. But if I do not speak for him, he will most certainly be put to death. He has already been stripped of his status as apprentice--that I was forced to do myself, and what magic he has will be taken away as well, leaving him as any other human being on the planet, unable to tamper with the universe again in such powerfull ways as magic, only capable of bringing its destruction in the way in which all life is capable--slowly, by the very avarice and greed and evil which brought about the first cataclysm."