(OOC: Wow... that post is no 'piece of shit', love. O_O It's
incredible. It's vivid and powerful and
DANG, what a look into Belle's world!
I am
seriously sorry I missed the obvious cues you were giving me; in hindsight it's so obvious that I feel really,
really bad for bringing things to this point. >.< I'll try to keep things together a little better as we progress instead of letting Mephy's ego run away with me.)
Time.
Time has a sense of cruel irony that no one, mortal or otherwise, can predict. Those who lose sight of it inevitably find it catching up with them, a train wreck just waiting to happen. And so it was that, at the very
moment Juviel was about to begin explaining things to the uncertain devil... it all came rushing back to him, all of it at once with an impossible force that left his head ringing. He recoiled physically, clutching at his forehead, teeth grit in anguish.
And, without time to recover from that blow, another came -- one that grabbed his essence with immaterial claws and pulled,
HARD, in a way he had never experienced or even imagined before. Such was the force of this 'summoning' that ethereal pieces of him became dislodged and lost to the endless expanse between reality and the beyond. He wanted to scream but couldn't -- there was no air anymore, not "where" he was. He couldn't even hear his own thoughts.
Only
hers.YOU WILL COME TO ME, NOW.
And he did. Time and space and things without names screamed around Mephisto as his being was both catapulted and
dragged from one fixed point to another. From the humble home of a blacksmith...
... to the spear-tip of a halberd.
The steely spike sunk into his chest, square in the middle and jutting out his back. Black blood gushed, ebbed, then flowed in streams. For that moment of clarity, of realization, of being dragged back to reality both literally and figuratively, he couldn't will himself to move -- utterly paralyzed, fixed in mind and body. But it wasn't the injury, grievous as it was, that affixed him so.
Her face. Her eyes. The pallor of death hung about her...
... and in that moment he realized the
depth of his failure. His
ego. As restored memories filled in gaps and brought to dagger-sharp clarity the current moment he saw himself, all through the entire night, as if an observer -- an audience of one watching a stage. How he preened. How he pranced. How he courted her... or what he
thought was her. And now, to see the fruits of his actions, the terrible and marvelous creature he'd so adored and been so taken by, reduced to such a state, acting in one last moment of vengeance...
He saw himself a fool, worse by far than the fools he'd demeaned to her as they'd discussed the Grand Duke and his machinations. Was his vision
truly so narrow? Or had he gotten so used to the collateral damage of his actions being someone else's problem that he only now saw it when it threatened to extinguish the one light he'd found in thousands of years alone. Pathetic. Blind. Callous. Self-gratifying. All those things and more.
His mind and body sagged, dropping to his knees, blood dripping in streams from his lips onto the weapon that impaled him.
Wrong. How had he been... so... so
wrong?"I . . . " The devil breathed out the word, gasped, sputtered, and spoke again. "I
failed you."
His own eyes, devoid for once of pride and hubris, gazed at her face. Once, mere hours ago, so beautiful... now bleached and ragged.
He had done this. She had tried and tried and
tried, but he hadn't seen. Hadn't
heard. All he could see in her was a beautiful destroyer, a furious seduction, a terrifying dance partner -- now he saw
her, a woman -- a
person -- caught halfway between humanity and something else, driven by anger and the burdens of the past. She had sought him out -- did that mean
NOTHING to him?! Not to use him or kill him or get something from him. She was after something
more... and all he'd given her was his own pretentiousness.
She was right. He was no different from the others. Yet she'd given him a chance anyway, and he'd
FAILED.
Every moment they'd shared the night before flashed through his mind. Rose petals. Stained glass. Stone pillars. Red candles. Green and gold leaves. Amber wine.
No. It couldn't end here. Not like this.
Gods and devils and everything else,
not like this...She had said he only understood power; maybe she was right. Maybe when Faustus created him, a conduit for the energies of daemonic realms, he had been bound and affixed to that as a core of his being. And there had always been an exchange,
always an exchange. Faustus had nearly bled him dry, and in exchange he later took the magelords' life and his soul. Every bit of power and service he'd doled out since then had come with a price tag attached. Even Juviel had been part of his machinations; her demonically-tainted forge would turn the woman's anger that Belle had sworn her to never release into tools of greater and greater power and malevolence -- an indirect 'exchange' and by no means costly, but of benefit to him in some future plan no doubt. It had always been about
HIM, about control and domination and gaining the upper hand.
No wonder she hated him -- all men -- for it. But this time would be
different.
In a momentary surge of inhuman strength Mephistopheles' hands came up and took hold of the halberd's shaft. For but a moment it seemed like he was going to attempt to push himself loose... or, as he would likely have done the night before, pull himself further onto it. Instead he just gripped it, hands tight and trembling.
"I
failed you. I left you out here to
die. To call myself the worst of all sinners would be absurd and a compliment; here, now, I am
dirt and
garbage."
Power. He
understood power, at least.
"I won't let you die. One of us should, maybe..." His eyes began to glow. "But not
you."
And then, it was like the devil's body suddenly caught fire -- unnatural black and crimson fire, starting from where the halberd pierced his chest and surging up until it engulfed his back and face. At the same time energy began flowing down the halberd's length like a conduit, glowing with a dark ruddy light like freshly-spilled blood. It wasn't just the power of corruption that was leaving him, but his own life force as well. Mephisto grit his teeth, shaking and trembling with the effort, finally unable to endure it anymore and screaming in anguish. It was there, all there in the halberd, everything she needed to keep her alive just a little longer, long enough to survive and continue on. No deals, no bargains, no arrangements. He didn't even know how much of him would be
left when this was over, honestly, or if he would survive. All he knew was that he could
NOT fail her now, not
again. His screaming became a mad howl of raw, piercing torment as his right arm caught aflame and began to dissolve, its form and essence consumed by the sacrifice he was making. The pain was unreal, like nothing he had
EVER known or imagined... but he didn't stop.
REFUSED to stop. He
wouldn't stop unless she
made him. And so he poured his life into the weapon that was killing him with utter abandon.
All she had to do was reach out. Take it.
Live. That was
all he now wanted in return.