[ eek school is in full swing now! i should be able to get on more once i rebalance my schedule]
Aelita stared at the ground as Geralt apologized. He apologized. She thought, as if struck by the idea that someone would even consider apologizing to her instead of blaming her. She let it take root in her head, let it grow and begin to crack the self-hating rocks that constantly cut at her confidence. That's what is amazing about people; even the most beat up, dragged down, pathetic person has a spark of confidence, a lion willing to eventually yell I've had enough, I'm a person with feelings, I am ME, and I amount to more than you will ever be! And in Aelita, that lion had been awakened, and boy was it hungry.
All this turmoil inside her had taken place in a split second, but when she looked up to meet his eyes, a hint of anger lingered at the back of hers. She wasn't angry at Geralt, in fact she appreciated his presence. No, her anger was for her father and him alone. With a nod and a small smile to acknowledge she had heard what he said, she turned and stalked off deeper into the forest. Her wings continiously snapped open and closed hard enough to make anything or anybody who saw them wince. She was angry, but she was more like an injured beast vulnerable to everything rather than one full of ferocity and ready to stalk its prey.
As she receded into the forest, a silent tear escaped her. She had held everything in since the day she was born, unwilling to admit that she didn't have a fairytale childhood. Now it was building, probing the dam of her mind for any weaknesses, and it had found one. Pretty soon, there would be a full blown flood. As she began to collect edible mushrooms and greens enough for two people in the pockets of her dress, the dam burst,leaving her weeping and trembling on the ground. Her tears hit the leaves beneath her- splat, splat, splat- in an unwielding manner. She let the memories wash over her. Memories of her father hitting her, memories of her mother ignoring her screams, memories of her mother dying...they were all there and yelling to be retold. They eventually slowed to a trickle, and then a complete stop, content for now to wait behind the dam again.
As she left the forest and entered the clearing that held her home, she didn't really care how she looked. She still tembled, and her eyes held a tender, bruised look, but gleaming out of them was still a hint of that lion. Her pale complexion was even paler except for the bright red blotches that surrounded her eyes and nose. Her dress, hands, and face were painted with bits of mud, making her appearance all the worse. She approached Geralt with her chin to her chest, afraid he's see that she'd been crying. " I have some mushrooms and greens in pocket."