Lana peered at him, "The easy answer would be, I'm a masochist. The other answer might be that I'm wiser than that. The thing is, Ghanon, we spend all of our lives trying to find answers to why things are, why we feel what we feel, what does this mean, why am I the way I am? What am I meant for? What kind of person does these things? The answers we have come up with since our first curiosity have been far from accurate, but now and then, history unveils a deeper understanding that, with time, may be nurtured toward enlightenment. I think within us there is a small seed of true understanding. Perhaps I deceive you in describing it that way. This understanding really isn't an understanding, but an acceptance of the epiphany that nothing takes shape exactly as it did before. Imagine a world of perceived limitations, which actually is a world made entirely of open doors. And most of us spend our entire existence leaning against these door frames with no recognition of the open air we're breathing from the outside. That's where we live, Ghanon. No two things are exactly alike. No two men have exactly the same intentions. One heart may appear precisely the same as another heart, but once unraveled theryare often entirely different."
She hoped she was not being too philosophical for him, and gave him a moment to digest her words.
"You are capable of so much evil. You have inflicted and suffered through such pain, but Ghanon, your spirit is unique. I could never see you as only what you represent. And yet, I also crave you for what you represent. Maybe others have seen your chaos as frightening, a weapon against them, and I see it as that also. But Ghanon, I have no ill will for you because of it, in fact, I am impressed by it. It is a fact of life, something I have accepted and can even covet. I know that you are more than capable of hurting me."
She paused, stroking his chin, and spoke lightly, "And I am entirely capable of hurting you. But whatever takes place, though I would hate it, if we ever hurt each other, a part of me would accept it."