Kanimir feels like his lungs might burst. He can barely see, blinded by the hot, blurry tears stinging his eyes, the way that that blurred vision sways as the lack of air gets to him. The woman - Fiachna, his fa-
Kyto had called her - wraps an arm around him, pulling him into her arms. He's shaking again, finite tremors that race through him and make him feel like that helpless, defenceless child again. Kyto can't be here, he
can't. He's dead, Kanimir saw him die, saw enough of his blood painting that dirty village street to know that he is dead and gone, two decades past. Yet, he can't deny what he sees, what he's hearing.
He wants this all to be a dream, a twisted, garish nightmare that he will awaken from any moment, gasping and cold but
himself. His head hurts and there is a horrible warmth behind his eyes and he just wants it all to
stop. He turns his face into Fiachna's shoulder, focuses on his breathing, on something he can at least try and control. Each breath he takes is sharp and ragged, whistling through him fruitlessly, and he grinds his teeth together, nostrils flaring as he tries to wrestle back some semblance of power over himself,
something he can lay claim to and identify as his. Fiachna's voice washes over him, sweet and crystalline, but the words unintelligible, and he settles in the knowledge that she is still there, still defending him.
He still can't say why, say what possible reason he has for trusting her the way he does, but her presence is comforting and enough to make him feel safe in a way he
never has. He can ignore Kyto, pretend he isn't there, pretend he isn't standing a mere ten feet away when he's supposed to be six feet under twenty years gone, and just focus on the feeling of a hand ruffling through his hair and the effort of controlling his uneven, rasping breaths.
Kyto watches his son melt into Fiachna's side and can't deny the cold feeling of shame that curls through his gut. There's anger there, too, even though the tone of her voice had almost resembled an emotion alike to sadness, there is accusation there too, slight and fleeting, but ever present. His eyes narrow, taking in the way she holds the boy against her, murmuring quiet reassurances into his hair. Making him hers. How swiftly he seems to have come to trust her hurts, in a way, but in another, he's well aware that the distrust, the fear in his boy's eyes, is not without cause. Far from it. He can blame Fiachna, can pour his bitter anger and hatred on her for leaving, for ruining him, but the guilt and pain and the gaping canyon of regret in his heart for what he did is ultimately his own to carry.
She broke his heart, but he was the one who laid that pain on his son rather than carrying it on his own shoulders.
He sighs softly, glancing towards the dwindling flames at her back and nodding in a resigned sort of way. He isn't going to achieve anything but upsetting the boy more if he stays, so he reaches for his scabbard and straps it back on before collecting his dying torch and moving back. He hesitates, glancing between Fiachna and the boy, taking in how frail he seems. He's shaking. The idea of finding some distance, some space to reassess his entire purpose for being here, sounds impossibly inviting and he turns away almost silently. Fiachna had waited for him, for whatever reason, he has to just assume she will stay there again.
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