"Ah..." Jayari bit the inside of her cheek, not quite sure how to answer that--and more than a little distracted as he tickled along her hair and made her hips squirm. She had fooled around with a few of her friends over the years, and she wasn't ashamed of that--yet she hesitated. As much as she hated to admit it, she was afraid of him judging her, and judging her badly. The world was filled with double standards, after all, and there were certain (very suffocating) standards she was expected to adhere to. It was one thing to fool around with a childhood friend that knew her and respected her and kept her secrets, or a guardian that likewise already respected her--and quite another to admit it to a man she'd admired and crushed on since she was young. There was a greater risk involved there.
She didn't want to lose his respect when she felt like she was finally just starting to earn it. And yet...maybe that was a silly concern? You know, since they were naked together with his hand down between her legs, and he hadn't seemed to mind her forwardness. But some men really wanted to be the first, too.
"I'm still a virgin, if that's what you mean," she breathlessly said, as nonchalantly as she could--and it wasn't a lie by the definition her people adhered to. She didn't give him much opportunity to process her answer, though, and roughly grabbed him by the hair and pulled him into another fierce kiss, tongue slipping into his mouth for a taste.
"And I'm not making you pay for this, am I?" she said against his lips, and gave them another nibble.