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Incandesa

The temple was not the warmest place to be, but Lilith could hardly blame them. She had been their enemy for centuries, and the new mindset would take some getting used to. And, if she was honest, she completely deserved the criticism.

So instead of enduring the heated side glances from nuns, monks, paladins, and priests everyone thought she hadn't seen, Lilith snuck off to the little forgotten corner of the temple she had always gone to when she was disguised as Mercy. It was plain, with no special windows and a ray of sunlight shining on a small dusty statue of Ekjin that she routinely cleaned. It was likely one of the oldest parts of the temple, and it had complete privacy.

Though she was still recovering, Lilith found found coming here was much more comforting that staying in bed, even if she was scolded for it later. The former demoness sat down next to the statue of her new god and began to sing. It wasn't a grand song like the choirs during services, just a little hymn of praise she knew from scripture, but she loved it all the same.

Amazing Grace, how sweet the sound
That saved a wretch like me
I once was lost, but now am found
Was blind, but now I see

T'was Grace that taught my heart to fear
And Grace my fears relieved
How precious did that Grace appear
The hour I first believed


("Amazing Grace"-1779)

Marjorie

This was one of the oldest parts of the temple. As such, it was rather humble in appearance. When Arnel's great grandfather, many generations removed, had started this order, he did so from a simple stone building with four long slender windows on each side. They let in the eastern light at sunrise and the western light at sunset. Over the decades and centuries sense the Order's humble origins, the original building wasn't knocked down and built over, but added onto. The grander, newer parts had come only in recent centuries.

Arnel liked these parts of the temple because he felt a strong connections to his roots in them, and because it was humbling. They were a solid reminder that humility was one of the great tenets of Ekjin. He paused outside the door when he heard Lilith's voice. He closed his eyes and absorbed the meaning of the words she sang. So simple, and so true. She had lived their meaning. Walked threw fire, and come out on the other side changed.

Could he change also?

Arnel fund great faults in himself of late. He watched her heal, and her soul start to thrive under the tender care of Ekjin who loved all, and he hoped only to see her heal further, and aid her to thrive in the light and love of Ekjin for the rest of her life... and yet, still he could not find it in him to forgive her, the wrongs she'd done him. Any of it, most of it, was easily forgiven... years of torment were wrongdoings he could look past. It was that she... She had taken away his chance to become a father, that was the trespass that really wounded him.

He gave a soft knock on the door before he stepped inside.

Incandesa

At the sound of the knock, Lilith immediately stopped her singing, and her flight instincts led her to hide behind the statue. It wasn't a particularly good hiding spot, and Lilith wasn't even exactly sure why she was hiding, but her still healing wounds meant she wouldn't exactly be hiding anywhere else. Even now, the deep cut in her side was aching from the sudden moment. However, she bit her lip to keep from making much noise as her hand pressed on the injury.

Out of all the times she had come here, no one had bothered her. So why now?

Marjorie

"Lilith?" Arnel's voice was soft and gentle. He frowned softly when he saw her half hiding behind an old statue of Ekjin. He wondered what the others had done to her to make her fear someone entering the room.

"If I'm disturbing you," he offered, "I can go."

Incandesa

When she heard Arnel's voice, Lilith peaked around the corner of the statue, just to make sure it was him. "What?! Oh, um, uh, no. It's fine," she stammered sheepishly. The former demoness slowly moved out of the statue's shadow to face him better. "So what are you doing here, Bird Boy? Don't have any plans to save the day or something?" She tried to laugh, nervously twirling a bit of hair in her fingers, but it was sort of hollow and awkward.

What was she supposed to say to him? 'I'm sorry for tricking you into thinking I was a nun?' 'I'm sorry for killing your wife?' That hardly seemed appropriate. Come to think of it, they had never really talked before as just people before she was disguised as Mercy. And she could hardly just pretend to be Mercy now.

Marjorie

"Heroic deeds are not the only way to save the day," Arnel said gently, "everyday kindness has a greater effect on the average person." He said, he believed, and that made it true.

She needn't apologize again. Even the death of his wife hadn't hit him so hard as the death of his dream of becoming a father. He didn't expect or require she apologize though. He only wished her to heal and grow and flourish under the tending of his God.

"Call me Arnel," he said gently. Birdboy felt too much like her flinging their past at him. He was a bit emotionally raw to face that so head on just yet. "How are you feeling?" He didn't mean physically. Her wounds would heal, of that he had no doubt, but he meant rather emotionally and spiritually- how was she doing.

Incandesa

"...A little raw," Lilith said after a moment. "I eat, I sleep, I pray. That's about it. I'd like to go out more, but I can't exactly go out like this." She gestured to herself. Though she could now walk on sacred ground and read sacred texts, her golden horns, red skin, and tail had not left with her conversion and she had lost her powers to conceal them. She would have to face others as she truly was.

What few temple workers who would tend to her were becoming friendlier, however the temple staff at large only barely tolerated her presence for the sake of Arnel. If she left the temple walls, there would likely be riots. (Though she tempted humans regularly in her previous life, they had never been aware of the true forms of herself or her kind.) Not only that, there were likely demons still searching for her. The demon king would not let his prey escape so easily.

"Maybe your good deed could be to get me some makeup, Birdboy," she teased, though she quickly caught her old habit and amended it to, "Arnel."

Marjorie

"The Sisters," he could also say his sisters, "tell me your wounds are healing well." Of course the physical ones were the most superficial, he knew. "You could," Arnel said encouragingly, "if you wanted to. If you would feel more comfortable with an escort, I would be happy to be of service to you." Arnel's offer was earnest and honest, even if it was partly fueled by his own guilt over a thing most would say he shouldn't feel guilting about. He should be able to forgive her thought, he should be better than he was.

"They mean we'll," he said, "it's not you so much, not specifically... we accept and aid people who have done all manner of wrong doing, so long as their desire to repent is true. It's just hard for them to let go a lifetime's worth of bias. Anyone else besides you,  in your unique position... even I might find it hard to believe..."  He wasn't making excuses for them. Ekjin preached understanding and inclusion though, forgiveness and love. To understand and appreciate the perspective of another was vital to that. "We are all flawed."

Arnel made not attempt to correct her, when she called him birdboy again, but smiled faintly when she called him by name. Something about hearing her say it as her true self for the first time pleased him. "Makeup?" He repeated, but as a question. Humility, chastity, modesty were all teachings of the order - tenets of how to live a good life... makeup was rare amount the temple denizens, though not forbidden. He tilted his head, looking at her with open honesty. "I don't think you need it." He had always found her attractive anyway. A thing that until that very moment he had always tried to deny.


 

Incandesa

Lilith smiled warmly. While she knew she was attractive (she was a succubus, how could she not be?) it was rather charming to hear such words from her old nemesis. "Well, thank you for the compliment," she said, giving a twirl very reminicent of old life, "but I'm afraid no matter how good red looks on me, it's scaring people." At that moment, a young novice tried to walk in, gasped and quickly hurried away, as if to make her point. "See?

"I'm sure if I steal a bit of theater makeup things will smooth out a bit. That stuff's thick enough to cover just about anything; it's almost as good as the mask of molk." It took her a moment to realize her slip up. "Borrow, I mean borrow the makeup." Old habits really were hard to break. "Given how often I used to get called out there, I'm sure I know a few people at the carnaval willing to part with a bit. Cut off the horns, and maybe the tail, and presto human. Right?" Not that it would work. The horns would grown back and so would the tail. Afterall, they had done so before when she was with the harpies.

Marjorie

Arnel frowned softly. "They should accept you as you are," he said delicately. "I do," of course, he was flawed in other ways. "Hiding behind a mask won't lesson their suspicions," in fact it might make them worst, "and you shouldn't have to anyway."

His frown deepened into disapproval as watched the young novice scurry away. He expected better of his brothers and sisters.

"No," he said with finality, then realizing his tone of voice softened it and added, "besides it being deceptive, you shouldn't have to harm yourself to gain the approval of others."

Incandesa

Lilith was a bit shocked at his statement. "You do realize that the only reason we're both standing here right now and not trying to kill each other is BECAUSE I origninally tricked you, right?" she asked, not able to resist pointing out the irony. But that wasn't his point and she knew it. "I don't have anyone to blame but myself for the specifics of my bad reputation, so I don't blame them for being rightfully cautious. It just..stings a bit. Especially after coming out of a life where men would literally flock to me. It's an adjustment to say the least."

She practically flopped down on the steps in front of the statue. Her holding up her head dejectedly. "Alright, so since I can't get make up, and you won't let me cut off my horns, what's your big brained idea, Birdb-Arnel? Give candy to screaming children? Sweep around petrified novices? Marry a priest?" She laughed, finding the last example to be particularly funny.

Marjorie

"No," Arnel said, and paused, and looked at her directly to give weight to his words, "the reason we're standing here. not trying to kill one another, right now, is because you reached out to me and you confessed the truth to me and expressed remorse." He took a step closer to her, and then another and reached out and took one of her hands into both of his. "I went and found you and brought you here because you changed," he said softly, "you found Ekjin and you deserve the chance to grow your relationship with him. I could feel it in you, that change, even when you presented yourself to me as a lie. There were moments of truth between Sister Mercy and I."

Arnel flinched, but didn't let go of her hand, in fact, squeezed it tighter. "You can have or do whatever you wish," he said gently, "I didn't mean that you can't... I meant that you shouldn't have to hide yourself to be accepted by others - they should accept you for who you are." With that, he put the fault on those who skirted around her, not on Lilith.[/b] When she made light and laughed and joked, it felt like a smack in the face and Arnel let go of her hand. "If you want them to accept you, you have to show them who you are inside, regardless of what you look like outside."

Incandesa

Lilith saw the look of hurt in Arnel's eyes. As if she were unsure if he would approve, she reluctantly took his hand again, if only to feel its reassuring warmth. She wasn't exactly sure what she had said to upset him, but it seemed whatever it was, it was serious. "Arnel, I-I'm sorry," she said looking at him shyly in the eye. "I apprecieate you defending me. I really do. If it weren't for you, they would've kicked me out a long time ago."

She squeezed her former enemy's hand and took a step closer before putting her hand gently on his face. They were only about a handspan apart now. Her eyes fell towards his lips before flicking back to his eyes. She could feel his familiar heat, the comforting scent of his skin. No! What was she thinking? She was a follower of Ekjin now, not a succubus looking for prey. ...But he seemed so warm and inviting.

Marjorie

Arnel allowed her to take his hand and his expression softened when she apologized. "It's ok," he said softly. "I know this is difficult for you," he said gently, "it's no less difficult for them, or me."  Though he was struggling with issues that had nothing to do with her being a succubus. "We are, all of us imperfect, but to sacrifice and struggle In Ekjin's name, for his vision and message of love and acceptance, it's the highest calling one can give themselves to.

"Changing a way of life, changing the way one thinks, these things do not happen over nigh or with ease."