She glanced toward the offered patch of earth when he gestured but did not move to sit, shifting her weight from foot to foot.
Why on earth was she telling him this?
Maybe it was a sick sense of guilt, as though by listing her crimes, acknowledging them, she could somehow...she didn't even know. Begin to atone? Or maybe she'd just been on her own long enough that any interaction was like a drug, addictive and nearly impossible to deny.
"Someone...died," she whispered, gaze fixed on her feet. Then she sighed and closed her eyes, her jaw tensing. "A lot of people died."
I didn't mean for it to happen, I just wanted them to leave me alone, I was scared, they threatened Ruka... Dozens of excuses ran through her mind, but she knew that's what they were. Excuses. So she didn't bother to voice them.